ANSWER:
Ellen, you’re supposed to feel inadequate because your sufficiency is in Christ. If you felt adequate for the assignment that the Lord has given you, then the chances for the vision’s failure are very high! Your trust and confidence must be in God alone, who called you, and the Holy Spirit’s enabling within you, to make it happen. You’re in good company. The apostle Paul wrote,
4 And we have such trust through Christ toward God. 5 Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God, 6 who also made us sufficient as ministers of the new covenant, … (2 Corinthians 3:4–6).
Paul’s trust in Christ was based upon the knowledge of his insufficiency in himself to think that any of his vision and calling was coming from him. His sufficiency was in God who called him and enabled him. So, don’t look to yourself. That’s where you’re going wrong. Relax in Him. The success of the vision is His responsibility. Your responsibility is to listen and be obedient.
On a personal level, you need to maintain your own success and internal prosperity, independent of the vision and assignment that God has given you. The secret for this is contained in God’s instructions to Joshua,
This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success (Joshua 1:8).
Three things that God says guarantee personal success and prosperity:
This will give you the courage to hold onto God’s vision and leave the details to Him. The vision will be fulfilled but it may look very different at the end than what it looked like at the beginning. Those who were with you at the beginning, may not be with you at the end. But you will be successful, and you will have completed God’s assignment for you.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go
(Joshua 1:9).